Monday, January 13, 2014


Trusting God is one of those things that I never really contemplated until my most recent season in life. I just always trusted. But, in the face of a situation that I never wanted to happen in the life of my family that trust has been put into serious question.

You see, looking back it was always easy to trust God because there was no tragedy in my adult life. Yes, I have had family members pass away, but never had I faced anything that flipped my entire world upside down.

And then, all of the sudden, I found myself in a place where trust became a choice and one that was hard to make (and still is)! Why would a God who loves me more than my earthly parents ever allow divorce? Why wouldn't He just answer my prayers of restoration and redemption? Isn't that what He wanted for me and my children as well? Why would He allow such heart ache? Clearly, this isn't what I had planned for my life!

Then, it hit me… like a ton of bricks. God is giving me the choice to trust Him and run into His arms or trust myself and do what I think is best. He is teaching me and growing me. He is forming me into His likeness. God cares more for my spiritual wellness than He does my earthly comfort. He wants me to glorify Him by choosing to trust Him, the all knowing God, and turning from my sinful, "I know better than God", self.

Do not get me wrong. I do not believe that God wants my marriage to end in divorce. He does however allow free will in our decisions and those of others. But, God can take any situation and make good from it. He promises us that in Romans 8:28 - "And we know in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Do you see that there is no caveat? He clearly says all things. So for me it reads, "Emily, even in the midst of your divorce, I am working good in you and for you."

Take a minute. Listen to this song, and digest the lyrics. God has called me out among the waters. He has allowed me to be in a position that my feet may fail and fear may surround me, but He has NEVER failed and He won't start now!

So, while at times it may be difficult and painful to keep my eyes above the waves and trust God's plan for my future, I want to be the individual who is willing to go wherever I may be called. I want my trust in Him to be without borders in order to increase my faith in Him. When oceans rise, I want my soul to rest in His embrace.

1 comment:

  1. If you hang around me long enough, you will hear me quote James in almost any situation. Nat (only somewhat jokingly) calls James my "life book." I suppose I like it because it is blunt, practical, and full of wisdom. That being said, I love the very beginning: Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything." (James 1:2-4) I love that, "not lacking in anything." I so agree with you that it is hard to trust in the hard times, but knowing that there is a bigger plan than I can see or understand and knowing that this trial is developing my faith somehow makes it easier for me.